Monday, August 22, 2005

When nothing makes sense, settle for a little non-sense...."Take some more tea," the March Hare said to Alice, very earnestly. "I've had nothing yet," Alice replied in an offended tone: "so I can't take more." "You mean you can't take LESS," said the Hatter: "it's very easy to take MORE than nothing." Alice In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll Posted by Picasa

Saturday, August 20, 2005

what was, what is and what will be Posted by Picasa

Not Just Eye Candy

Thank you all for your encouraging comments. I make thousands of these images & select the one that comes closest to saying what I long to say yet cannot articulate in words--but more often than not I spend hours, sometimes days tweaking the heck out of just one fractal alone to get it to say what I ache so bad to express.

To me these aren't just eye candy; they convey very specific thoughts, emotions. I have some brain damage that often limits my ability to articulate in words, to make my fingers sketch what I see (and oh what I see, how I wish I could show the world!) I post these images “casually” yet there is nothing “casual” about them at all. These pieces are far more than “eye candy” to me. They are the deepest cries of my soul—every ache and every joy. I am a very intense, very passionate person. Limitations of articulation are a great source of frustration for me because my imagination and thoughts are not so limited!

I have good days and bad days. A bad day is when I cannot find words to express what I am thinking or when I lose a little more memory. I think my subconscious takes over somewhere in art because sometimes people looking at them “hear me”, sometimes they even see depths in them that I didn’t realize were exposed & that thrills the heck out of me. My other blog is a sort of tormented struggle because the form of expression in it is through words.

Working with chaos art means controlling random (or rather attempting to) to create effects that convey these thoughts & feelings. Like any form of art some people are completely unmoved but it is awesome when someone looks at these and a feeling is stirred up in them! Even if it wasn't the feeling I was trying to convey! I am thrilled when someone tells me how they felt or how they interpret what I made. Sometimes I think of not naming them at all so as not to prejudice the interpretation.

I have an almost anguished desire to convey something of what I think or feel. At the same time I am also very interested in the feelings evoked by them, the interpretations of these images by whoever views them. If something is stirred inside of you from what I have created--it is a success! It moved you. I hope people will share their impressions in the comment section. Each interpretation would be absolutely unique to the individual, therefore possibly radically different. How exciting that is!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Only the greatest of teachers can give us wings...thank you Posted by Picasa

what if everything around you isn't quite as it seems...what if all the world you used to know is an elaborate dream...what if you could look right through the cracks---would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see? NIN, Right Where It Belongs Posted by Picasa

Saturday, August 13, 2005

elocuente silencio Posted by Picasa

Friday, August 12, 2005

assimilation/loss Posted by Picasa

Sunday, August 07, 2005

I have no words for what I feel tonight. With this image I may show you... Posted by Picasa

I suppose it will never cease to amaze me that this is math Posted by Picasa

I loved you then, I love you now, I love you always.... Posted by Picasa