drifting away

...into the abstract
in terms of how i see myself

sometimes
i think i can see right through myself
sometimes
i can see right through myself

NIN, Only 

silence

Give me release
Witness me
I am outside
Give me peace

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

Passion choked the flower
'Til she cries no more
Possessing all the beauty
Hungry still for more

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides


In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence
I believe

Sarah McLachlan, Silence 

Apologies for the messy blog...a bit sick, will set it straight soon.

 

Where Oh where did my sidebar go, Oh where, Oh where can it be?

 

 

 

 

let me fall...

Let me fall...
Let me climb...
There's a moment when fears & dreams must collide

Josh Groban, Let Me Fall 

sing along!

If I sing a song will you sing along
If I sing a song will you sing along
If I sing a song will you sing along
Or should I just keep singing right here by myself?

If I tell you I'm strong will you play along
If I tell you I'm strong will you play along
If I tell you I'm strong will you play along
Or will you see I'm as insecure as anybody else?

If I follow along does it mean I belong
If I follow along does it mean I belong
If I follow along does it mean I belong
Or will I keep on being different than everybody else?

"Sing Along", Blue Man Group featuring Dave Matthews from "The Complex" CD 

wilder than your wildest dreams

Too much is not enough
Nobody said this stuff makes any sense
We're hooked again
The point of no return
See how the buildings burn, light up the night
Such a pretty sight

Adrenaline keeps me in the game
Adrenaline--you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than your wildest dreams
When you're going to extremes
It takes adrenaline

You don't feel the pain...

Sail through an empty night
It's only you & I who understand...there is no plan
Get closer to the thrill that only time can kill
It's in your eyes--
It's so alive!

Adrenaline keeps me in the game
Adrenaline--you don't even feel the pain
Wilder than your wildest dreams
When you're going to extremes
It takes adrenaline

Running through the speed of sound
Everything that slows you down
All the colors that surround
All bleeding into one
The only thing you really need
Just a way to find the speed
And then you will achieve
Escape velocity

Too much is not enough
Nobody gave it up--
I'm not the kind
To lay down and die!!

Adrenaline keeps me in the game
Adrenaline--you don't even feel the pain!
Wilder than your wildest dreams
When you're going to extremes
It takes adrenaline

Adrenaline, screaming out your name!
Adrenaline, you don't even feel the pain!
Wilder than your wildest, wildest dreams
When you're going to extremes
It takes adrenaline

Adrenaline, adrenaline, adrenaline...

You don't even feel the pain!
You don't even feel the pain!
Cause you're going to extremes!
And there's nothing in between!
It's where I want to be!

I'm going to extremes!
I'm always in the pain!!
And I'm going to extremes!
And theres nothing in between!!
There's nothing in between!!
When I'm going to extremes
There's nothing in between...

You don't even feel the pain, feel the pain,
Feel the pain, feel the pain...

"Adrenaline", Gavin Rossdale
(One very intense song.) 

take me gently into morning...

Take me gently into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind

Sarah McLachlan, "Answer" 

persona

Every morning I put it on
I walk outside and I am gone
And I don't seem to mind anymore
I can't think what it was like before I wore it all the time

In the evening I take it off
But there's another one underneath
And I can't seem to find the bottom of the stack
I might just loose my mind & never get it back
But at least I'll get inside...
At least I'll get inside

There's a feeling that I get sometimes
It's so small that it's easy to hide
It's like a howling voice from the distant past
It seems I've got no choice when it comes to this
It's building up inside...
It's building up inside...

Blue Man Group (featuring Josh Haden) "Persona" from "The Complex" CD
One of my worst & earliest Apophysis renderings but it works for this song. ;) 

I don't usually favor symmetry because it is so...heh....symmetrical. But I loved the soft colors and warmth of this one. This just feels soothing to me. I hope you enjoy it.